I Say It

I say it not for you but for myself,

As if speaking it will give it life,

As if the words spilling out of my lips,

Through the breath I release grow wings and fly off.

I say it.

I say it because it bubbles in my soul,

And it echoes with the beating of my heart,

With each step I take it moves with me,

Like the print on my fingers,

And the features on my face,

It is a part of me.

It is the way I feel and so,

I say it.

As if speaking it will give it life.

I say it not for you but for myself,

I say it to the wind that blows,

And if never it falls on any ear,

My voice carried with the wind has life,

My words spilt from my mouth fly off.

I said it.

xoxo

Chido Dziva Chikwari

My writing often, if not always, comes from within. I always write when I feel I have something to say that has affected me in more ways than a touch on the surface. In many ways writing is therapeutic for me. A lot of things that I write come from extreme emotion and writing helps me decipher my feelings and release. I write for myself, often pieces of which I have no intention of sharing and mind not if no one ever reads.

So true to that this post was inspired by 2 things:

#1) An experience this past week where I found myself speaking or rather saying something to someone for myself. This was so new to me, vocalizing (not writing) NOT for the edification of someone else but for myself. I learnt that this too can be therapeutic. Letting my feelings go in the form of words was helpful, for myself.

#2) A Quote by Audre Lorde, “ I have come to believe over and over again that what is most important to me must be spoken, made verbal and shared, even at the risk of having it bruised or misunderstood. That the speaking profits me, beyond any other effect.” She put it plainly why I blog and why now I should more often speak for myself about things that are important to me. And more specifically speak with the profit being for me despite the possibility of being bruised or misunderstood.

So in all this my lesson and encouragement like Audre Lorde put so well is that one must SPEAK about the things that are important to them. If for no other reason than for yourself, SPEAK!

Keep Shining