I want to be HAPPY

"I want to be HAPPY.

This is what it all boils down to,

A five letter word,

H A P P Y.

And if all my earthly desires fall off the one thing I pray I’m left enamored with is HAPPINESS.

Whatever that means to me at the time,

H A P P Y."

This is something I have come to appreciate more and more as the years have gone by. Something that I have, for the longest time, taken for granted when writing my wish lists for life; when planning what I’d like to do, to accomplish. Some of the things on those lists I have achieved, some I am not so keen about anymore and some I’m still working hard to attain. Some have brought me moments of fleeting happiness, others have brought me satisfaction and opened doors and others have been contrary to what I expected – not really worth the fuss. I suppose at the time these are the things I thought would make me happy. At the time those are things I thought were the missing links to 'getting there' wherever 'there' is. 

For the most part the things that truly make me happy have come in disguise, unplanned and sometimes even  inconvenient and unwelcome (chocolate). These are the things that have proved me wrong and have shown me that no matter how much I accomplish in life be it material wealth or accolade, HAPPINESS, stands above all and comes with a certain peace that reminds you that even though things may not be exactly as you would like them to be it’s okay. 

Generally it has not come in the form of physical things that I can touch or point at. Happiness has often shown itself to me in the form of blossoming relationships and a renewing of the mind where I change the way I think about certain things. Now that I have awakened to it I realize how important it is to be HAPPY. Yes, having things and reaching great milestones in life is nice but if you are not happy what is the point?

One of the key examples I can give, in my life, is the idea of marriage. Something that I have glorified for as long as I can remember. Something top on the list and critical to the sequence of how I felt my life should happen. I don't feel that way anymore and while getting married would be great I realize that unless that marriage comes with a relationship in which me and my partner are both happy I'm okay not having it. 

“Happiness is a state of well-being that encompasses living a good life—that is, with a sense of meaning and deep satisfaction.”

I want to live a good life. I strive for Happiness!

xoxo

Chido Dziva Chikwari