Dear Friend

I am writing to let you know that I am proud of you.

Despite all the unfair obstacles the universe has thrown at you, 

You have done so well. 

I want you to know this because I know that sometimes you doubt yourself.

I know that you are often uncertain of your progress.

I know you are always craving for more and want to do better. 

But, I want you to know that you have already done so well! 

I also want you to know that you are strong. 

I want you to remember that because I know that sometimes things can get difficult. 

I know that sometimes you feel tired and weak and want to give up. 

Don't do it! 

No challenge is too big and no obstacle too much. 

You can do it and you will make it. 

Take each day as it comes, 

And rest when you must darling, 

Rest. 

It will all be okay in the end. 

xoxo
Chido Dziva Chikwari 

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@tinashe_mia

I started writing this with one person in mind, however, as I was writing so many more loves of my life came to mind. So I decided to share it here. If the message speaks to you please do take it for yourself (I did).

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Guest Blog: Excerpts from My Life, The Book

Sometimes something happens in your life that you never planned to happen. You never planned it to happen but you see it coming. Devastating but freeing. Vague, I know. But this something happened to me. I was stuck in a place I saw no future in but still held on and hoped for the best. Giving my best to something that deserves less than average. God has a way of knowing our deepest desires and He knew mine. When this something happened I was devastated. Words were to heavy to come out my mouth so I turned to paper. In my quest for healing a book evolved with excerpts from my life - what it was before the something, during the something and after the something. I am finally free.

ENTRY #0

I wish i didnt want to always write about you 

But you broke me into a million pieces 

But with each written piece 

A piece of me is restored 

So i must write a million times 

Plus one 

That one is for me

- aftermath of you

ENTRY #1 

I dont want you to to think this book is about you. 

It may come strange to you that something is not about you

It was always about you. 

My saddness-you. 

My happiness-you. 

You took and took until there was nothing to take. 

I was spent. 

We were about you. 

Your hope 

Your dreams 

Your future. 

You took and took until there was nothing to take. 

I was spent. 

The little that was left I poured on paper. 

To fuel. 

I wrote and wrote and there is more to write. 

This book is not about you. 

It is for me. 

Im reclaiming and reclaim until there is nothing to claim. 

This book is for me.

ENTRY #1209

I eventually wish for you to mean nothing 

Not lost dreams 

Disappointment 

Or pain 

Just nothing 

Absolutely nothing 

Nothing

ENTRY #3 

I forgive 

Again

Again 

And I gain

ENTRY #800900

Here is to love 

Endless smiles 

And booming laughter 

Thank you for life 

Thank you for everything 

He is everything  

- him

A . M

I wept...

I had so much to say.

Words bubbled up inside me,

and My emotions swelled up,

Rising rising like a volcano within me they erupted.

The flood gates burst open and I wept.

I wept for the times I did not say anything, 

I wept for all times I did and was not heard nor understood, 

I wept for the first time and the last time it happened.

I was broken.

And as I lay there shaking I tried once more to piece myself together again, 

To draw up all the pieces that were shattered, 

To collect back all that I had given away,

And all that had been taken from me.

I tried to bring myself back together again, 

To mend myself,

To heal.

I had so much to say,

But only the walls were there to listen to my beating broken heart,

Because when he was done, 

He slept. 

xoxo

Chido Dziva Chikwari 

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