Wednesday 7 November 2018

Love Letter to Myself


Hi Beautiful,

I know I don’t tell you this often enough, but you truly are breath-taking.
Your smile lifts my spirit and
Your eyes light up the entire room.
I am in awe of you, my love.
You probably don’t see it yourself but
Your body is amazing.
It is!
Your skin is its own chocolate brown,
Your stretch marks form their own unique patterns,
Your birth mark sits perfectly below your collar bone,
Your scars lie hidden in plain sight on your arm,
Those non-existent eyebrows and that nose you inherited from your grandmother are perfect.
Your thighs, although often hidden, are in one word...nice!
And so are your boobs. 
I love the golden colour of your hair and how it refuses to be tamed,
Very much like you.
I know I don’t tell you this often enough, but you truly are breath-taking.

Love
Me.

I have gained a lot of weight over the last few months and it is tough! The negative comments come from everywhere but most importantly from myself. It sucks. I do not like the way I look in the mirror or in pictures and I hate that I am struggling to fit into most of my clothes. So now I am working on it; ever so slowly but I am working on it. 

In the meantime, I really do not want to be in a space where I don’t like myself, so I forced myself to write this piece. I stood in front of the mirror and complimented parts of my body that I did like and ignored the parts I don’t like at the moment because to be quite frank they have been getting way too much attention lately. 

Why did I do this? 

I believe positive self-affirmation is really important. I believe that in life you should be your biggest cheerleader. If additional support and admiration comes from elsewhere that is great, but it should start with me. 

A quote I read recently says, “Just because you’re not thin it doesn’t mean you’re ugly. You are beautiful because of the light you carry inside you. You are beautiful because you say you are and you hold yourself that way.” [Mary Lambert]. That is all. 

xoxo
Chido Dziva Chikwari 

Keep Shining!