Tuesday 24 September 2013

Who am I?



Standing in the empty room, her reflection in the mirror she ponders on the question.
Who am I?
Can the answer be uncovered through the seeing of an eye or does her substance go deeper than the image before her?
Who am I?
She recollects her past, the things she has done. Is that the sum total of her being? She shrugs and counts that out.
Who am I?
Her thoughts drift away to a not so distant future..a place where her dreams come to life and imagery of HERSELF shines forth.. Where the past meets the present and the future is there too.
A woman, an advocate, a voice, a lover, a mother, a friend, a builder, a peacemaker.
Who am I?
She is not what meets the eye; a reflection in the mirror.
She is not her past; the things she has done.
SHE IS: a painting half done, a story half told.
Where the past meets the present and the future is there too.

XoXo
Chido Dziva Chikwari

I don't particularly like this piece because it really is very cliché BUT at the same time what's cliché is probably what's really going on in the hearts of so many and that's what makes it relevant. This was inspired by an interview where I was asked point blank who I was and in the moment I had no clue how to respond. I probably blabbered on but later asked myself the question when alone in the confines of my room. I discovered that who I was is not how I appear to be now (that has the potential to evolve and has over the past 22 years) and neither was it who I was yesterday and all the things I had done to take up my time (those are so varied and change too). I then thought of all my hearts desires and where I want to be. A lot of satisfaction came then but that still didn't cumulate who I was. I wasn't there yet. This kinda left me stuck and I wanted to conclude by viewing this an inexhaustible question but that wouldn't be fair. So I was left with a combination of the three,  "Where the past meets the present and the future is there too". I am not defined by my past and what I did, I am not defined by my present and what I am doing but they all contribute to my tomorrow and that place where they all meet is hopefully where you will find ME!

I am only but a work in progress ;)

But then again if I was to drop dead today who would I be?

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